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"Rage is depression turned inward."
I’ve officialy graduated from Vesalius College. Five years ladies and gentleman, five years to get to this point and it feels fantastic! Seriously. Graduation day was like my birthday again except there was a lot more people. The weather was great. The champagne after affect was just what i needed and the crowd was all in all in a great mood. Plus to my surprise i ended up graduating with mostly B’s. I was worried about my Capstone thesis course, and its the one i did best! So thats a great ending to a chapter. Friends, family and good grades! Mazel-tov hahaha
So today i am moving out to my new home. Its still in the same old city. But it is a nicer house than this one. Its good to move around from house to house sometimes. Change of scenario. I came into this house when i was fifteen. From fifteen till now this house is filled with memories, amazing, intense, you know. It was a huge turning point in my life. Have this chapter closed means a lot to me. Survival. Independence. Heartbreaks - learning to move on. Parental conflict but being able to finally become the peace maker. Went from blacksheep to the cute white duckling. So i guess we are all ending on a good note.
So i became friends with a Brazilian girl from Uni in Janurary. She is around nineteen. We became close friends really fast. I admit i have a knack of doing that. Getting close too fast. Big mistake, considering my tendencies of getting sick of them just as fast.
Anyways, she was like the little sister i never had, and it was nice having her around most of the time as i was living on my own. However, I began to realize her gurlie gurl attitudes towards the end of last month, and quite frankly, i just reached a point where im just fed up. When a gurl/woman is constantly trying to make herself attractive on the eyes of all, she ends up losing touch with her true self and well, she ends up becoming a complete show off. Then again you can just come down to one conclusion - the girl is insecure. Dont read that much into it.
Lastly, i hate when girls use other girls to make themsevles socially appealing to others. A.K.A - the ‘gang’ of hott gurls. Calling eachother baby, sweety, and buying bikinis for one another. Mushy talk. Urgh. I mean if she is my friend, she probs thinks im attractive. Compliments to me. If she didnt she wouldnt be my friend. But thats not the point.
Point is, I’m a woman who does not need to use the physique of others to upgrade myself in social scenes. And women who do that irritate me. Unfortunatly she does this all the time. Its rediculous. She is a pretty girl, but I have seen gorgeous women who simply dont behave that way. No i am not jealous of this person. I just always thought that true friendships tend to differentiate their friends from one another, giving individual importance and attention. But yes, enough bickering.
Seriously i just wrote a half paged blog on how great i felt about graduating. And now im just irritated. No but its true, im delighted. Six years. Left highschool at 17 - about time i wear the blue squared hat whilst holding my diploma. Ha, hows that for a feel of fulfillment and accomplishment. I’m giving out a universal high five for all of you who feel the same. Because its a great feeling, and life is calling!
Now we talkin’